Trouble

I am so sporadic with my blogs, but school's been stressful, legit excuse. Friday can't come faster, I can't wait to go home. Then Sunday morning, bright and early at 3:30am, driving to the airport and departing for the Dominican Republic!!! A Spring Break that is well needed and well deserved, I might say.

Where do we go? Nobody knows... I've gotta say I'm on my way down. It just came on as I was thinking about what to type next, how perfect! Cuz no one knows where we are going, especially not me. I will probably go down... down into that black abyss; I really don't want to end up there.

I really don't have a main point for this entry, just needed to let my brain rest for ten minutes. 4 more days, that's all I gotta keep telling myself.

I'm living under my own New Moon

My chest feels like it's been ripped into a thousand pieces; I've been crying on and off for 2 days now; I feel like there is this void in me that nothing can fill; I feel empty, lost, and pathetic. I am in absolute bittersweet bliss, no... make that absolute tormented bittersweet bliss... All because of...

I feel dark, and no matter where I look or how hard I look, I can't find the light. I listened to All of a Sudden I Miss Everyone on repeat for 20 hours, straight. It seemed to know exactly what I needed to hear for comfort, for sympathy, for rage, for anger, for sadness. It knew exactly what my emotions needed.